Wednesday, September 5, 2012

My body in question

Things to talk about.
I only love my body at my home.  I try to prepare myself.  I look at my attractiveness, my beautiful unruly hair, my lovely curves.  I am not skinny.  Right now I'm not even very fit, although I know that is temporary.
But my curves are delicious and attractive.
I have learned to wear clothes that show my legs!  A huge step for me.
But as soon as walk out the door I become less in my own head.  Dowdy.  Chubby.  Thick waisted.
I am afraid to act as though I am proud or strong for fear someone will think I believe I am beautiful.
But I am.  I am beautiful.
I wish I could believe it and let go of the rest.